Everyday Asperger’s Lingo
These are some of the words I use in my writing. These are not voices in my head or alternate personalities. Although that would make for interesting blogging. Applying labels, names, and identities is a way my brain categorizes to make sense of what is going on inside my head.
I find processing easier, if I can relate my experience, thoughts, and emotions to visual images. With visuals I can determine what is going on in my mind such as: defense mechanism (Crazy Frog’s humor), obsessing (OCD, LV), rambling (Sir Brain), journeying deep within (Prophet), or another behavior I might not have otherwise picked up (Elephant).
Neurotypical: What people in the autistic community sometimes call people who are not on the autistic spectrum.
Aspie: A slang term for people with Aspergers. Appropriate for people with Aspergers to call themselves or their friends with Aspergers.
Planet Aspie: An imaginary land where Aspies sometimes think they come from.
Little Me: (ME) Who I perceive me to be as I’m typing and communicating to you. Little Me is my audible voice and my moving body, and the receiver of thoughts from LV. Little Me is the author of this blog, a wife, a mother, a friend, a daughter, a teacher, etc. I am the serious one.
L.V.: (My inner conscious) Little Voice inside my head. She is a petite cute little girl with a tight blue sweater with the letters LV monogramed on her sweater.
(I created this image; I don’t really think she is real and lives in my head, but this image helps me explain my thought process.) LV represents my conscious thoughts. She is the ambassador for my brain. LV often has a running dialogue going on in my head all day long. Particularly when Little Me is tired, had too much caffeine, stressed, or over-stimulated by the environment. She is never quiet. She uses G-rated swearwords like: crap, poop, and darn. She is a little spacey and super innocent.
Sir Brain: (Where thoughts are processed and I am sidetracked; where rambling comes from) Sir Brain or sometimes Brain is a squishy grey ball edged around with shapes of the continents. He is sometimes a male—mostly a male, but sometimes a female. He is smart but relies on LV to translate information to Little Me. He is docile, compliant, and sluggish. He doesn’t speed up, but LV does. Brain checks out sometimes or takes me places I don’t want to go: like worrying about death and illness. He’s a likable guy, but not someone easy to follow. He goes off on tangents, rambles, and is easily distracted by strings of yarn.
Strings of Yarn: This is anything that catches Sir Brain’s attention. Just like a kitten follows string, Brain follows a certain word or image and goes off subject, frequently. I might say, “Brain is following another string again.”
Crazy Frog: (humor) Crazy Frog is a part of me that depends on humor for survival. He likes to make connections, use sarcasm, tell jokes, be ironic, find silly YouTube videos, and delete. He often deletes Little Me’s depressive prose. He edits, too. He is the final reader of my work, ensuring the posts are not too dull or repetitive. He listens to music over and over again. He finds irony in the fact that his is the final editor but has dyslexia.
Prophet in my Pocket: (my higher self) An old distinguished man who whispers profound prose, poetry, and deep philosophical thoughts. He resides in my right pocket. He comes out when I need him. He is akin to my spiritual advisor and connection to my higher source. He is humble, extremely smart, kind, and levelheaded. He is highly evolved. Sometime I consider him a spirit of the light, or Stewart of the Light; which means helping spirit of the light.
Back Space/Back Up: What I sometimes type when I try to get back to the point I was originally talking about before I rambled on and on.
Melancholic: One of the four temperaments of ancient times. Little Me best fits the description of the Melancholic temperament. Which includes the traits of: sensitive, intuitive, self-conscious, easily embarrassed, easily hurt, introspective, sentimental, moody, likes to be alone, empathetic, artistic, fussy and perfectionistic, deep, prone to depression, avarice, and gluttony!
Hamping: This is when a thought, idea, fret or passion gets stuck in my head and I can’t get the thought out. Can be considered reoccurring thoughts. Writing helps with hamping, and so does verbally processing. Sometimes exercise, listening to music, or getting out of the house helps. Hamping happens most when I am triggered by a stressful event, a special interest, a fear, or an unexpected event. The thoughts are linked together, so one thought leads to the other, and then the thoughts repeat themselves. For example: “He bumped his head. There is a bump. I hope the ice is helping. What if the ice doesn’t help? He looks tired. What should I do to help? Should I take him to the doctor? What if he goes into a coma? Maybe I should google head injury. He bumped his head. There is a bump…”
Verbally Processing: Getting things out of my brain by talking or writing.
Over-Share: Telling information about myself that is more personal than the mainstream typically expects. Providing information that is too personal, too fast. Over stepping boundaries.
Elephant: (The part of me that is afraid to come out very often) A brave, but fragile spirit, that hides inside the embodiment of a strong and protective male elephant. Elephant speaks up ever so often to state her right to individuality and love. She loves unconditionally. She is melancholic, shy, and determined to be heard.
This is her motto:
I want you to like me, because I like you,
I want you to love me, because I love you,
I want you to acknowledge me, because I acknowledge you,
I want you to see me, because I see you,
I do not long for attention, I long for balance. ~ Elephant
The Geek Posse: Little Me, LV, Sir Brain, Crazy Frog, Elephant, OCFlea, and whoever else we pick up along the way.
An inner voice that causes my son to worry, to not want to go to school, to hate showering. I have an OCFlea, too. OCFlea is responsible for obsessive thoughts and actions such as: I need to check my Facebook page; I have to have that chocolate; I need to play that video game again. He is not related to Hamping. Hamping involves a long string of thoughts that keep looping back, and can be about anything. OCFlea usually pertains to extreme fixations, obsessions, phobias, and anxiety. He is responsible for getting me out of bed to check that the door is locked or that the computer is in sleep mode. He is a big flea. We, my son and I, tell him to be quiet or to shut up. OCFlea is negative and impulsive. OCFlea is the one that wants to stay home the most. I’m working on OCFlea getting in touch with his passionate inner-flea; thus the ukulele lessons.
Squirrel-In-The-Box: When I’ve had too much chocolate or caffeine, and don’t know what’s going to pop out of my brain.
Phantom: She’s more of a female but with a tomboy attitude. She despises feminine aspects in all forms, but yet finds herself a female. A difficult position to be in, I imagine. Anyhow she’s lurking somewhere within, and doesn’t have a lot of beneficial, high-energy words to offer me or other individuals. I imagine she is hurting somewhere deep, deep inside of her being, but that most people would try to bomb her before giving her the time of day. I can’t blame her for hiding. As I fear her myself, and wish to destroy her. Even as she whispers, “I am your teacher.”