289: Sleepless Near Seattle

motel me

I didn’t sleep well last night.

Tonight, I said to my husband: “Honestly, I’m not exaggerating; I woke up at least forty to fifty times last night.”

Then I replayed the sleepless night in my head, to make sure I wasn’t exaggerating about the amount of times I woke up.

I hate to lie. And to me, any stretch of the truth seems a lie. I almost self-corrected, as I calculated that to wake up forty times in an eight-hour period, I’d have had to have opened my eyes about five times an hour. In actuality, I probably woke up four times an hour …so it was likely thirty-two times. But I stopped myself from speaking all these thoughts aloud, and just stared at my husband with squinted eyes and furrowed brow, like I always do when I am processing in my head.

Then, knowing I’d paused too long when considering typical conversational protocol, I sputtered: “I couldn’t sleep because you snored.” Only that statement instantly didn’t feel right, and I knew I’d soon be speaking my whole truth, whether I wanted to or not.

I processed more. I have no clue what my husband was doing, even though I was practically on top of his lap on the couch. I was in a distant land thinking that I ought not to have provided such a large gap of time as the space between forty and fifty times—that’s a ten point spread.

Confused in general, I tried to recover and offered, “It wasn’t just you snoring.” I was sounding weepy and whimpy, by now.

Soon, the complete truth began to leak out.  I confessed, “And there was something else.”

Of course my husband asked, “What?”

I responded slowly, with a full-blushed face.

Within seconds my husband was laughing so hard that I expected snot to shoot out of his nose.

You see, last night, we had, at the last moment, decided to stay at a motel off of the interstate, while traveling up north-east for a snow-sledding adventure. The plan was to drive up in the evening and sled in the morning the next day. I  accidentally booked a hotel (with swimming pool, continental breakfast, two televisions, etc.) that was too far away from our destination; so last-minute-searching led us to a small, what I would call “cheap” motel.


I took this on our way up to the snow

I guess I was keen on the fact that we were likely staying in what could be termed a “dive,” when my husband informed me that we had scored a large room with three beds, in one of only two motels in the entire town, near a popular ski resort, for only $99. That, and the fact that the small, twenty-year old television only got one channel.

Oh, and yes, my son with Aspergers did say straight away, “I don’t like the smell of this place.”

Upon entering the spacious room, about six-feet away from where our mini-van was parked, I tried to get into my place of Zen; I do that quite frequently, set about to have a Zen-like mindset. I think to myself, what would a saint do, or Buddha or Jesus, if in a similar situation. How would he or she respond? And the answer is typically the same: act with gratitude and grace. And then I push down those thoughts of how much easier it would be to be Zen-like without my type of mind.

In considering the motel, I contemplated my good fortune. We had fresh water, shelter, blankets, warmth, electricity, and more. I snapped myself out of the “disappointment” zone swiftly, without calling myself names like “spoiled” and “unappreciative,” as I’m working on that whole positive-thinking thing, too. Which depending upon my mood, sometimes makes me want to gag.

But staying true to my state of positive-Zenniness, I began to list in my head everything the motel had to offer, right about the time my husband came out of the oddly-angled bathroom (toilet juts out and causes one to bruise knee when passing by said toilet) and announced, “Don’t forget to add that the floor slopes down at an odd angle to your list of why this place is cheap.” He knows me so very well.

So, I’m listing the positives to myself: (and occasionally out loud with a snicker to my husband)

Internet connection

Oldest son has own bed.

Even though I can’t use my bath salts as there is no bathtub, there is a quaint stand up shower.

Mold is only on the outside of the shower door.

The smell of cigarette smoke and what seems to be wet-dog-scent is not too strong.

There are other cars in the parking lot; which means other people stay here, too.

No hair that I can see: dog or human.

The sparkles glow that are set in the cottage-cheese-like ceiling; I don’t think I can get asbestos poisoning unless someone jams a fork or something up there.

The aged lamps painted poop-brown from the inside out, are all cracked and broken which makes an interesting type of abstract art; I wasn’t electrocuted when I turned on the lamp.

The boys won’t be fighting over television channels.

The door lock sticks and we can’t use it, but that chain should hold up for one night.

The light from the parking lot will serve as a giant night-light.

We don’t have rooms below us or above us, and on either side of our room are storage garages. The boys can be loud and no one will hear.

We don’t need to use the noisy heater that heats up the room too fast, especially since the curtains (that remind me of my childhood home) hang right over the heater, because if it gets cold, we can pretend we are camping.

This would be a cool setting for a Fargo-type movie or for the series Breaking Bad.

If anyone died in here, it was likely a long time ago.

I haven’t slept in a full-size lumpy bed for years.

The lacquered wall art of trees reminds me of the 1970’s.

I have both thick socks and slippers on, so I’ll be good to walk on the carpet.


I’m working on my list of gratitude when my husband chimes in, “And these walls remind me of my mother’s family room.” He’s pointing to the fake-wood paneling and laughing.

I fake a smile, and then whisper to him, “I probably shouldn’t tell the boys to stop rolling in the bedspread because the bedding is likely not laundered, and adults could have done any a number of things on those covers, right?”

“Yes, Hon. Not a good idea,” he answers with his trademark, I-married-a-loon-that-I-adore, shake of the head.

Right about then, my son who has Aspergers pipes in: “Have you seen what they can find with those special blue-lights in hotels?” My husband and I politely ignore him.

In the bathroom, after bumping my knee again, I notice that there is no shampoo, no blow dryer, and no supplies beyond toilet paper, Kleenex, four wrapped plastic cups, and a stack of some ten miniature soaps. Ten tiny soaps wrapped in brown paper? I think to myself.

I come out of the narrow bathroom, and soon my zen-attitude is promptly invaded by a case of the sillies…and everything spills out of my head in the form of a verbal-tag game of why this would be considered a dive hotel, with my husband.

Of course, I won, when I pointed out that there was no coffee or coffee maker.

Still, the little voice in my head circulated and percolated, reminding me to be ever-so-grateful. After all, there was a Starbucks nearby.

This brings us to tonight, and me explaining to my husband why I couldn’t sleep while in the motel.

This is how the conversation went:

“Well. It wasn’t really your snoring that kept me up. That was just a small part of it.” I paused, not so much for effect, but because I knew I was going to bust up laughing, even though I was entirely serious.

My husband Bob waited patiently.

I continued. “I couldn’t sleep because…..” I paused.

“I couldn’t sleep because I was afraid I might touch the sheets,” I said.

Bob smiled and held back his chuckles. “But you had your sleeping bag, pillow, and blanket from home and you weren’t touching the sheets.”

“I know,” I said. “But I was still afraid…I was afraid I would accidentally touch the sheets in the night.”

Bob busted up fully.

“Ha,ha, ha, ha. So you were like lying there asleep, and then you’d wake up with a jolt, look to your side and think the sheets, like they were some monster?” He stiffened his body and imitated me in a fear state on the bed at the motel, terrified to move an inch. “But you were in a sleeping bag,” he added.

“I know,” I said, “but I was afraid if I feel asleep my arm might flop out and…”

“And you’d accidentally braze the sheetttttttttttttttt!”

“Yes,” I answered, by now laughing hysterically. “I couldn’t move or relax because I was afraid I would touch the sheets”

“I love you, Honey,” Bob said, implying he knew how hard it was for me to be me, right before he did another mini-scene of me being attacked by the sheets.

Here is my bed: (See how close the sheets are???)


I guess Bob wasn’t too surprised by my sheet confession, because this morning in the motel I made another of my phobias known. I had whispered to him, “Okay, I’m just going to tell you now, so when you find the wet clothes in the laundry you’ll know why.”

“Oh, no,” he responded, shaking his head. “What?”

“I’m showering in my socks!”

blue skyOn the way home

I wanted to call this post: Attack of the Killer Sheets, but I didn’t want to give the ending away.

25 thoughts on “289: Sleepless Near Seattle

    1. “gorgeousness personified” Can’t get much better than that. Oh, I just love that, and considering the source is YOU, that just is icing on the proverbial cupcake. 🙂 thanks soooooooo much, lovely you. xo Sam

    1. I know super-ick! right? hehehe I love your comment… OMG…it’s like we are having tea together and you are gasping in disgust. hehe. Hugs and Happy New Year to you Sunshine. xo Sam

      1. I would be gasping in disgust 😉 I would love to be able to have tea and chat. Happy New Year to you, Sam. You always make me smile and brighten my day. Hugs xo

  1. OMG, I would totally have the same reactions. I would probably be so wound up from the smell, the moldy shower, and the nasty bedspreads that I wouldn’t be able to sleep a wink.

    1. He, he. The last commenter wrote OMG, too. Makes me feel much more “normal” in my reaction. Thanks so much for sharing. And yes, indeed, it felt like I didn’t sleep a wink. Happy New Year, and thanks for your words. xo Sam

    1. I just read about your camping trip. Enjoyed it. Lovely photos, too. I like the one of you inside your burritto sleeping bag, with the one eye. Artistic pose. Glad you got a chuckle… I know my husband and I sure did. Oh the life of a big-brained girl…. adventure after adventure, I tell you. Happy New Year and all the best to you and yours. xo Sam

  2. i think it has made YOU feel better saying words like SNOT.this is what I have too say ,WORDS THAT MEAN WHAT THEY SAY happy new year sam//family mark

    1. Oh Mark…. you are soooo right. Yes, “snot” did make me feel better. Snot, snot, snot. Words that mean what they say… yep…I like those type of words. Happy New Year to you and your family, Mark. I hope this year is filled with happy memories for you. Love and light, Sam

  3. I can, fully and honestly, say that when you write things like the above it makes me feel more “normal” (normal being the other people in the world). I’m not, but you and I, at least, we’re a lot alike. My stroke would have made me not care much about the sheets. The shower thing, I am not so certain about.
    Don’t take this as me making fun of you; I’m not. I am just happy to hear other people talk about things that bother them as it helps me with the things that bother me (or, at least, did).

    1. Oh, I know you don’t make fun of me!!!! You wouldn’t dare…as I would write back on your blog and poke fun at YOU. hehehehehe I know your heart….don’t worry about that stuff with me. Yes….we all be normal in our weirdness, I believe. Thanks for your continued comments and support. Hoping this new year brings you tons of happy coincidences and unexpected joy. xo blogging sister of the normal folk

  4. I love your attempts at “Zenniness.” I do that too! And I had a similar dive hotel experience in June in Virginia and I swear it must have been the same hotel somehow transported to the Seattle area!! Or maybe all such hotels have ten wrapped mini soaps and no coffee maker and mold only on the outside of the weirdly-shaped shower…

    1. Thanks for reading. 🙂 The same hotel. lol. Maybe!!!!! I enjoyed your comment and your humor. Makes me smile. Thanks so much. Happy New Year and I wish you so much happiness and joy. xo Sam

  5. I felt I was right there with you..:) I have great difficulty with staying in motels. I’m glad to know it’s more common than I had imagined. This Blog post gives me strength and hope for my upcoming stay Saturday night in the top rated motel in Merced, which is right next to the highway. I guess the other ones are under the overpasses. 😉

  6. I wish you were, as we would have had a grand laugh, a super chuckle. Whenever I am in a hotel I am reminded of Grandma E, and how before I departed to Europe at 18 she had this terrible gas, and all of us, Mom, boyfriend A, etc. were in hotel near airport laughing at her farts. lol lol lol Hugs to you. I pinch the cheeks of your beautiful face. pinch-pinch-pinch. xo ~ m

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