Wow! I’ve really found myself again.
Transformations and transitions have been powerful.
I looked through some photo albums this early morning and I actually remember joy and happiness and love. I see the person I was and am. I see what a wonderful, nurturing mother I was and am. I see how beautiful I was and am.
I spent so much of my life doubting my exterior and internal beauty.
I’m realizing I am beauty.
I have energy. I’m motivated. I’m excited for life. I’m hopeful.
I recognize my challenges, but carry a hope that all will be okay.
I’m counting my blessings and recognizing what a glorious life I’ve had.
All in all, every wish I’ve had as a child has come true. And every goal I had as a young adult has been met. I know if I died today, I would be content.
I have helped people through my various vocations and writings.
I have reached out.
I have been caring and thoughtful.
I have placed others first, but also learned to pamper and love myself.
It really is quite glorious.
I’m at a time in my life where I am learning to appreciate my uniqueness and also recognize my commonalities with other people.
I am less rigid and structured, more able to relax and understand my thought processes. More able to accept who I am and what I am.
I am even able to look in the mirror and like what I see.
So much growth.
I am very pleased
I’ve spent the last two weeks reawakening and cleansing the energy in my house through the practice of feng shui. And I’ve reveled in the process, spending some nine to ten-hours straight some days working on the house. (Can you say “fixation” ?) The inspiration and motivation to clean and organize my home came after more than five weeks of being couch-bound and sick from a series of infections, the longest standing being viral bronchitis.
Symbolically and energetically, while facing physical health challenges, I cleared out much stagnant energy within my body through my constant coughing and removal of chunks of phlegm. (Pardon that visual image.)
Now that my interior being has had a good scrub through, I am setting about to clear out the gunk from the exterior of my life.
Everyday I cleanse my home, I feel lighter and happier in spirit. I have more clarity than I have experienced in years and have been welcoming many gifts through this energetic cleansing process.
I feel reconnected to a part of me I haven’t felt in years. I am reawakened myself in my ability to recognize the effective and beneficial parent and homemaker, friend, and spirit I am.
*as a side note, both days I cleaned my study, the feng shui area for prosperity and money, I was rewarded within hours with unexpected monetary awards.
Observations:
Removal of dog’s crate, his winter jacket, and blanket from the house. (Scooby passed away in February, shortly after starting this blog.)
Release of grief and sadness.
Welcoming of acceptance, love, and peace.
Bagged and boxed up items I’ve been saving for years, incase I ever need them.
Release of thoughts of scarcity and not enough.
Welcoming of trust and abundance.
Removed dirty plunger, stagnant water, scissors, dirt and debris, and clutter from heart-center of house in utility room.
Release of death, destruction, and stagnant emotion.
Welcoming of clarity, newness, and beneficial flow of energy.
Balanced water elements of bathrooms with earth elements such as floral design, stripes, blue and green, and pottery.
Release of flood of emotions and drowning in worries.
Welcoming of nurturing, calmness, and grounding.
Bedroom cleaned and stripped of clutter and most décor.
Release of cluttered mind and unrest.
Welcoming of deep breaths, deep relaxation, and sanctuary.
Children’s bedrooms cleaned and unneeded items given away.
Release of attachment to greed, distraction, and confusion.
Welcoming of having enough, freedom to move and create, and satisfaction in simplicity.
Underneath kitchen sink cleaned of scum and cleaning supplies removed and placed elsewhere.
Release of need to hide the whole of me. Release of burden of poisonous thoughts.
Welcoming of safety, love of self, and emptying of garbage.
Storage closets organized and cleaned out.
Release of past regrets and the need to hold on to the past. Release of cluttered emotions.
Welcoming of order, structure, and ease.
Front entry cleaned and organized.
Release of fear of people and rejection.
Welcoming of friendship and happiness.
Expired supplements and medications discarded.
Release of pain and suffering.
Welcoming of health and wealth of energy.
Cooking pots and pans, canned and boxed food organized.
Release of dread and confusion.
Welcoming of nutrition, clarity, and fortification.
Décor and gifts I kept out of guilt.
Release of pressure to please, fear of hurting others, and retention of unhealthy relationships.
Welcoming of beauty, joy, and pleasure.
Mementos taken off shelves and out of closet, and then boxed.
Release of fear of losing past happiness and hope.
Welcoming of present happiness and merriment.
Sorting through photo albums and photos.
Removal of past untruths.
Welcoming the beauty I was and am. Welcoming the wonderful memories of the family I have helped lift and raise.
Everyday Asperger's 
🙂 This brings me happiness. 🙂
🙂 Thank you for the support 🙂
Smiles. Just tons and tons of smiles.
Huge smiles back Lady Day. How are you? xo
Fine as always..thank you so much. obviously you are feeling reasonably well these days too. So happy to hear you’ve been cleansing your soul love. xo
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Well Wow to that Sam! Fantastic, cathartic and creative clear out, Feng Shui in the Autumn seems like a jolly good idea! 🙂
Wowza right back at you. Thank you for your continued uplifting words. 🙂
Heartfelt, Whole hearted and Full of Love, yes that’s it! xox
Thank you. Light and love to you. 🙂
What a wonderful cleansing process you have gone through. A wonderful thing to behold. Thank you for sharing such heartfelt truths about your journey in this life. Inspirational.
Thank you bunches (of pumpkin muffins) Jackie. Love having you in my life. hugs.
Welcoming in a rejuvenated person… you certainly sound like a person that has recovered well from the ailments with a new lease on life… a super cleansing…
With a view like that from your home… you should be bouncing personality daily… welcome back I’ve missed you and your posts… your poetry and inner thinking… you sound well and happy and that puts a smile on my face…
Thanks so much bulldog. How is life there? I am very, very thankful for our view. It is like an ever changing giant photograph right outside our windows. I love how the water changes hues based on the season and weather. Today a very dimal grey, but just as lovely. Great hearing from you.
🙂 Sam
SMILING 🙂 🙂 glad to be back and reading your blogs again, my friend 🙂 🙂 very nice post here, Samtastic…very happy for you…love the pics and you really radiate transformation (obvious)…keep smiling and nice to see Violet (or is that Violet?) {{{{hugs}}}}
What a kind comment. Hugs to you fine friend. Keep smiling. And yes, that is spastic colon, aka: Violet (Named after Series of Unfortunate Events character).
i relate to this. so much.
also, THAT’S the view from your home?! gahhhh :]
Your Gahhhhh comment cracked me up. lol. Thank you for your words. 🙂
House-cleaning is indeed deeply therapeutic. Congratulations. One of the last lines, “removal of past untruths,” is so important too.
You are so correct: removal of past untruths….for me, seems to be an every day process. Hope all is well in your world. 🙂
I am so happy for you, Samantha! ❤
-The Raven
Thank you sweet Amber Raven. Much light to you. 🙂
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Recently I’ve started to veg back into my old interests of Astrology and Crystals. I’ve never looked at Feng Shui but I might just do that.
I’ve spent so long looking at the traits and characteristics of Autism and other Special Needs but lost the link that some of us are just typical to our star sign. That would be a great post – to look at the similarities!
I thought about your comment a lot yesterday. Yes, indeed, our astrological signs do make a difference in our traits, don’t they. So much is just who we are….only as humans with human brains we seek to catergorize to make some sense and order. Thanks for your comment. Wishing you lots of light and love. ~ Sam
I am trying hard to begin the process of cleansing my life through cleansing my home. I have a new house cleaner and she is very good and has agreed that, each time she comes, we will spend one hour tossing and sorting and other necessary things that I simply have difficulty with.
I needed this post, Sam. It has helped me mentally prepare.
Scott
On the same wavelength again, hey, dear blogging bro??? I do hope you stick to it and clear out the clutter and excess; it certainly lightens your spirit and makes life in general easier. Keep me apost. 🙂 Much love and light to you.
Thanks, Dear, sweet, Blogging sister.
I have just started reading your blog and am so grateful to have found it. My 12 year old daughter has Aspergers and your beautiful description of the traits of girls with aspergers is like a gift to me! It fits so well and has given me an insight and an understanding that I have not found anywhere else. Thank you.
Your words truly bring me comfort and feelings of thankfulness. At times it’s hard to write and share parts of me, but your comment helps me much. Thank you for taking the time to write your thoughts. Much appreciated. Best wishes to you and your daughter. 🙂 Sam
Right on Sam! You go Sister! Isn’t it wonderful out into the light? A whole world awaits! 🙂
Love seeing your pretty face here. We ought to get together some time when you are traveling down to Portland area. Hope you are well. And indeed, the whole world awaits. 🙂
Yes!! We should! And we should warn the world…
Watch out world; here we come! xo
I like the way you associate each action with a principle. Great way to think about it!
Thank you. It was a very healing process. I appreciate your comment. Hope all is well. 🙂 Sam
What an amazing post dearest Sam… sorry have not been as diligent on my blog visits… hospital procedure tomorrow…and still in midst of pain and decision making. So glad I stopped to see this though — I need so much to do this cleansing thing too… physically impossible for me to do a lot i the house – but I know how much it frees you up energetically. This was beautiful my sea sister ~ xoRL
Hello lovely sea sis. I certainly miss you. I miss my blogging family, and you especially. How are you? How was your procedure. You are on my mind. Thank you for your kind words. Always a joy to soak in your energy. You could write “poop” and it would likely resonate with the energy of fertilizer and nurturing. 🙂 hehe
Hi there sweet Sam ~just a quick one as have been evacuated due to pending Hurricane (Sandy) …I miss you too sweetie ~ go see me at age 8 on my latest post when you can – you will get a kick~ In the meantime hope you are well… and sending lots of love ! ps: procedure has not given relief yet — but he did confirm my femur pops out of the socket ~ lovely hugh? xxooo
Please keep me updated on the storm and evacuation. I hope you are safe and do not lose power. Sending you light and love. That sounds painful. Take care and speak soon. Hugs and love.