I lived outside of my body
It was easier that way: not to feel
But all along I was feeling
Truly feeling
Only unable to know
To understand
To experience
I was numb
Or I was dumb
Dumbed-down to the sensation
Everything mixed together
Mingled into a dance
Where toes stepped on toes
And fingers were warped
I couldn’t reach the itch
I knew not what or where to scratch
All of me ached
Until I centered myself
And focused
And woke up
Arose and stopped the slumber
No longer closing my eyes to the nightmares
Submerged in truth
And happenings
In reality of present
And slowly
The parts of me
With whispered memory
Began to remember
Where I stood
My feet grounded to the earth
The heaviness pulling down
The weight of me acknowledged
My being represented
The light abiding
One by one my body spoke
I am here
I am present
I am sensation and form
I am awareness and openness
Day by day I whispered
The parts of me to self
Unclench me
Unnerve me
Unfasten me
Release
Let go
Relax
Let the pleasure unfold
The awakening begin
Of harboring pain
And fear
And trust’s foe
You are
You are
You are
And in everything
We move as one
Everyday Asperger's 
Perfect! So many words you share here reach into my soul. I have been feeling very disconnected lately it is a comfort to read words that bring such peace. Thank you Sam!!
Ahhhh…thank you sweet, dear Angel. My finger with a smily face is waving…hehehe. Your words were perfect and really made me feel good. Thank you.
Bubbles of light to you ~ Sam
Your writing is very deep, and full of feeling. I love the way you use words. :3
-The Raven
Thank you. I really felt this one…the energy in the words. Appreciate your comment.
I can see that clearly! ❤
🙂
I’ve spent some forty, fifty years- exsisting mostly “outside” my body, watching my every move,manner of dress etc. It is such a strange feeling to actually realize that if I close my eyes, I can feel my body, like a lumpy cave that I reside in. I really Love the beauty of this Earth, which is why I am an artist. I’ve never felt like a person, but with my excellent artistic skills, I resemble one of the finest humans one might encounter along this funny path. Im fifty three years old, and I’m still seventeen on the inside, still dont know which way to go, or even which questions to ask. You are fortunate to have had you’re epiphany by now, looking forward with renewed hope for myself.Thank you for your lovely posts. Like music, a gift to the listener.
I read your comment twice. I really like your words. I do hope you find peace with your body. I find if I focus on pulling my weight/energy down to my feet and ground myself, I feel much better. Also, I try to notice my body throughout the day…where the tension is, etc. Best wishes to you, and thanks for the awesome sharing. 🙂 (that last line really sounded like a teacher, didn’t it? lol )
Thank you for your thoughtful response.I will put all my energy in my feet.lol…happy face, happy feet!
I love what you write and the way that you write it. Each post scintillates.
I had to look up the word scintillate…..cool word! Thanks so much. Appreciate your time and comment. 🙂
Thank you for reminiding me where I am meant to be…….
You are so very welcome. Thank you for your comment. 🙂
Huge huge message here… thank you dear sea sis… so many sleepwalk through this life ~ afraid to feel for that may be painful… but wouldn’t’ we rather feel, and live ~ then not feel at all and just exist? Loved this ~ xo R
Love you Sea Sissy. 🙂 Thank you. I knew you’d get this to the core. xo
I AM A ADULT WITH ASPERGER SYNDROME, I ALL SO HAVE M.E. I AM IN PAIN MOST DAYS
THINK WHAT THIS IS LIKE
mark kent
Many people with ASD seem to also have chronic health and pain conditions, myself included. I am sorry for your pain and wish you the best.
Enjoyed the read, as always.
“I am here
I am present
I am sensation and form
I am awareness and openness”
For some unknown reason, I found myself singing the song…
“I am woman” 🙂
Scott
lol. Thanks so much B.B. 🙂