Post 245: As One

 

I lived outside of my body

It was easier that way: not to feel

But all along I was feeling

Truly feeling

Only unable to know

To understand

To experience

I was numb

Or I was dumb

Dumbed-down to the sensation

Everything mixed together

Mingled into a dance

Where toes stepped on toes

And fingers were warped

I couldn’t reach the itch

I knew not what or where to scratch

All of me ached

Until I centered myself

And focused

And woke up

Arose and stopped the slumber

No longer closing my eyes to the nightmares

Submerged in truth

And happenings

In reality of present

And slowly

The parts of me

With whispered memory

Began to remember

Where I stood

My feet grounded to the earth

The heaviness pulling down

The weight of me acknowledged

My being represented

The light abiding

One by one my body spoke

I am here

I am present

I am sensation and form

I am awareness and openness

Day by day I whispered

The parts of me to self

Unclench me

Unnerve me

Unfasten me

Release

Let go

Relax

Let the pleasure unfold

The awakening begin

Of harboring pain

And fear

And trust’s foe

You are

You are

You are

And in everything

We move as one

 

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20 thoughts on “Post 245: As One

  1. I’ve spent some forty, fifty years- exsisting mostly “outside” my body, watching my every move,manner of dress etc. It is such a strange feeling to actually realize that if I close my eyes, I can feel my body, like a lumpy cave that I reside in. I really Love the beauty of this Earth, which is why I am an artist. I’ve never felt like a person, but with my excellent artistic skills, I resemble one of the finest humans one might encounter along this funny path. Im fifty three years old, and I’m still seventeen on the inside, still dont know which way to go, or even which questions to ask. You are fortunate to have had you’re epiphany by now, looking forward with renewed hope for myself.Thank you for your lovely posts. Like music, a gift to the listener.

    1. I read your comment twice. I really like your words. I do hope you find peace with your body. I find if I focus on pulling my weight/energy down to my feet and ground myself, I feel much better. Also, I try to notice my body throughout the day…where the tension is, etc. Best wishes to you, and thanks for the awesome sharing. 🙂 (that last line really sounded like a teacher, didn’t it? lol )

      1. Thank you for your thoughtful response.I will put all my energy in my feet.lol…happy face, happy feet!

  2. Huge huge message here… thank you dear sea sis… so many sleepwalk through this life ~ afraid to feel for that may be painful… but wouldn’t’ we rather feel, and live ~ then not feel at all and just exist? Loved this ~ xo R

  3. Enjoyed the read, as always.
    “I am here

    I am present

    I am sensation and form

    I am awareness and openness”

    For some unknown reason, I found myself singing the song…
    “I am woman” 🙂
    Scott

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