He came at dawn’s break
With glowing light
My heart made soldier
To his delight
My fingers his minion
And beckoning call
My body his vessel
As tethered, I fall
In untimely game
From the utterance only
Of one simple name
Love, how you choose
Like buttercup of land
And captain my freedom
In hourglass of sand
Unturned and still motion
Time plays without one
My world on a shelf
Until love is undone
~ Sam Craft, November 2012
Thoughts on Love
There is the love of mother to babe, sister to brother, neighbor to neighbor.
There is the love that reminds one of self, a reflection of beauty and recognition.
There is the love of accomplishing a sought after goal and reaching one’s highest potential, a satisfaction.
There is a love of enduring and suffering, and sticking things out.
There is a love of familiarity, having known each other to the point of predicting the next move, next statement, next thought.
There is a love of journeying together through trials and tribulations, and hopes and dreams, a love of endurance and strength.
There is a love of opportunity, of hope, of guessing, of wishing, a pulsating-driven love that makes one leap out of bed in hopeful expectation.
There is a love of infatuation, lust, and mingling, perhaps driven biologically or through soul, or a combination, but nonetheless hot and steamy and wanting.
There is a love unreturned that leaves one empty and doubtful.
There is love unrecognized, ungrown, unnourished, ungiven—the love of neglect and forgetfulness.
There is the love of ego-centered built only to uplift self, to praise one to feel good about another, the prospect of another’s potential temporarily filling the void of the emptied.
There is the love of uncertainty, resembling the love of obligation.
There is rule-bound love, created for conforming and people-pleasing, a mask placed on and off as needed.
There is the love of twins, separate but one, who move as mirrors as one another, and cannot help but love what is them.
There is the love born of hate, where battle was fought, enemy lost, and the tears wash out the anger to expose the commonalities of humanity.
There is a love of knowing, of caring, of wanting to fix and make better, to appease the need to reach out and help.
There is the love of smothering and clinging.
There is the love of using to gain, to hide, or move ahead.
There is the love of respect.
There is the love of awe.
There is the love of mystery, a captivating intrigue, without reason or explanation.
There is the love of company, companionship, the release of isolation.
There is love in the word alone, the vibration and energy produced in thought and sound.
There is love in the beauty of one or many, the beauty of nature, the beauty of art, creation.
There is love that is all-encompassing, beyond borders and definitions.
There is love that is far-reaching and healing.
There is love beyond measure, pure elation, recognition and union.
There is love lost.
There is love unopened.
There is love in silence and emptiness.
There is love in a touch, in a dream, in a memory.
There is love in illusion.
There is love.
I’ve been trying to understand what love means since last April. This has been a year of much transition and healing for me, and along with this healing has been the extreme necessity to understand love. This morning I awoke before dawn and was able to visualize a clear understanding of love as the word applies to my life.
I recognize now that I sense a soul print of each person when I first make contact, even if that contact is through words and not face-to-face. This is not through any one sense, but from another sense I’ve yet to recognize or label. In some ways, the process of sensing a soul print seems to be a combination of all the senses with the addition of a knowing and feeling at a cellular, muscular, and both physical and non-physical level.
When I meet someone, the soul print is in the form of energy and makes pictures in my mind. I feel the person in different parts of my body; for example a tightening of the stomach or shoulders. With many people I feel uneasy both physically and emotionally, and I assume spirtually; with a select few I feel very safe.
For some reason, I can recognize peoples’ insecurities, fears, and misgivings readily, usually in general terms, and sometimes in specifics. I can easily sense states of unrest, panic, unease, addiction, deception, and interior motives. I can readily sense pure thought and unconditional adoration.
The person’s energy triggers memories in myself, and I can connect the energy to past experiences and past encounters.
I’ve felt these “feelings” since I can remember.
I feel energy with every word I write, think, or say. Likewise, I feel energy in other people’s words, whether it is the universal energy of the collective-thoughts of a word, or the intention behind a person’s word. Some words feel false, contrived, and unnecessary. Some words feel like trickery or falsehood. Other words feel free of clutter, clear, and pure.
I can feel a person through their words. I cannot explain it, but know it to be true.
When I worked as a spiritual counselor, I could sit with a person and tell them what I saw, how I perceived them to be energetically. I could see his or her trials and challenges, and also could see direct tools to assist in removing stagnant energy.
I don’t see things in levels, or heights, or degrees. All is equal. However, I see people stuck in a certain spot, often repeating the same patterns and lessons.
I can sense the energy of people trying to be strong and domineering, when they are actually wounded and lacking. I can sense anger and resentment, and these tend to be the most challenging senses I encounter.
How I feel upon meeting someone the first time, does not change. I know instantly if I can spend time around a person and be depleted or remained balanced. I know instantly how much I want to be with that person and if he or she is nurturing to my soul.
Why this information is important to me is because I realize now I equate love to the energy I feel from a person. I don’t feel love for a person. I feel a vibration and sense a soul print.
Where some people say love can grow with time, I do not understand this concept. I love from day one. If I feel nourished by someone’s energy, I feel an elation that would equate to falling in love.
I don’t love a select few. I love everyone. But I feel better around certain people more than others. One could say I “love” a person based on the energetic vibration. Only vibration levels change. So that would be a false observation. I love a person’s soul print. It’s an underlying vibration that stays the same regardless of how that person feels at a given moment.
I understand now that I do not understand the mainstream’s idea of love.
Love doesn’t grow. I feel exactly the same way for a person the entire time. Their soul print doesn’t change.
At times when a person is happier or sadder, I feel these emotions, but his or her emotions do not affect how much I love or don’t love. Sometimes a person’s actions can have a rippling energy effect of joy or dread that reaches me, but the actions do not affect how much I love or don’t love. My love is not based on outside sources, something I can view externally, judge, discern, or categorize. If I love, I love.
I understand now why I can tell someone I love him or her after knowing them less than a day. And that as hard as I try to love someone more or less, I cannot.
I understand why I cannot get enough of someone whose energy is nurturing and giving and kind and centered. I see more and more how I am attracted to balanced and secure energy: people that love based on the unconditional energy-factors and not the limiting external factors.
When I love someone, I stop seeing the person in human form. Their face and body disappears. This is why it’s hard for me to remember faces, as I’m not focusing on the exterior; I am focused on the energy. When I love someone, I don’t care what they look like, how they age, or change, or are altered outside; there comes a time when I don’t see the outside at all. But there are elements of the physical I might recognize from dreams and distant memories. Something in the physical that draws me to them.
I’ve written this all out because of a driving need to understand love. But now I see the complexities are beyond my understanding entirely. So I will rest in the fact that the more I know myself, and the more I focus on being a beneficial light, absent of ill-will and judgment, that the more I will benefit love. And in this way I will grow; only to perish again with the seasons, and once again reseed, resurface, and stare in wonderment.