Day 116: My Last Day

As this is my last day in Maui, I am thinking upon the lyrics of Nickelback’s song: If Today Was Your Last Day. I am meditating on each and every word.

While taking my walk on the beach this morning, while photographing the abundance of nature, while packing, while driving, and while stepping on the plane, I will be holding these lyrics in my heart and mind.

I have, for many years, been living each moment like it was my last. However, I was living from a fear-based approach. Negativity swamped my mind. Today was my last day because I was slowly dying. Today was my last day because I might not live to see tomorrow. Today was my last day because I was afraid to live.

I walked Dead Man’s Beach. I thought of every worse case scenario. I remained careful and cautious. I didn’t reach out like my heart called me to reach out. I didn’t have fun because the fun inspired fear of loss. I didn’t risk, because risk meant danger.

I had been living like my last day entirely upside down and backwards. Fear consumed me. Everything measured by fear. Everything judged against worse case events. Everything absorbed into this shadowed light.

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I don’t want to be on my death-bed with regrets of having not lived. I don’t want to live another day worried and harboring deep seeded anxiety. I want to live. And I shall.

I shall carry the healing waters of this tropical island back home with me to the state of Washington. I shall continue risking. I shall continue surfing the waves. I shall stand straight and paddle across the seas. I shall dive deep and swim with the beauty beneath. I shall speak my truth to those I hold so dearly in my heart. I shall speak my truth to myself.

I shall hold my own hand and walk forward, seeking adventure and joy instead of a prison of safety. I have lived so very, very long in captivity that the thought alone of running free is powerful.

Today is my last day in Maui but it is the first day I return home reborn into hope and the wonderful possibilities of life.

Nickelback

 If Today Was Your Last Day

My best friend gave me the best advice

He said each day’s a gift and not a given right

 Leave no stone unturned, leave your fears behind

And try to take the path less traveled by

That first step you take is the longest stride

If today was your last day

And tomorrow was too late

Could you say goodbye to yesterday?

Would you live each moment like your last?

 Leave old pictures in the past

Donate every dime you have?

 If today was your last day

Against the grain should be a way of life

What’s worth the prize is always worth the fight

 Every second counts ’cause there’s no second try

So live like you’ll never live it twice

Don’t take the free ride in your own life

If today was your last day

And tomorrow was too late

Could you say goodbye to yesterday?

Would you live each moment like your last?

Leave old pictures in the past

Donate every dime you have?

Would you call old friends you never see?

Reminisce of memories

Would you forgive your enemies?

Would you find that one you’re dreamin’ of?

Swear up and down to God above

That you finally fall in love

If today was your last day

If today was your last day

Would you make your mark by mending a broken heart?

 You know it’s never too late to shoot for the stars

Regardless of who you are So do whatever it takes

‘Cause you can’t rewind a moment in this life

Let nothin’ stand in your way

Cause the hands of time are never on your side

If today was your last day

And tomorrow was too late

Could you say goodbye to yesterday?

Would you live each moment like your last?

Leave old pictures in the past

Donate every dime you have?

Would you call old friends you never see?

Reminisce of memories

Would you forgive your enemies?

Would you find that one you’re dreamin’ of?

Swear up and down to God above

That you finally fall in love

If today was your last day

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14 thoughts on “Day 116: My Last Day

  1. I am just loving watching you grow, watching you heal, watching you come alive. God truly is amazing how He comes to find us in the dark. Seeing the light in you burn so brightly, honestly and with such an open heart is such an honour. I’m so gald to be part of your journey.
    Yep…that fear is a prison and we all get lost to it, good to know we are not alone.
    You are as you said, “reborn into hope and the wonderful possibilities of life.”
    About to surf the waves…..I look forward to reading your adventures.
    Hello ~Samantha Craft, it’s so good to see you shine, the lovely star you are.
    Love you my lovely friend.
    Lees. xxx 🙂 ❤

    1. Oh, thank you so very much. It is amazing how much I do feel I have grown in the last 100 days. You are a special part of that growth….enabling me to feel safer and brighter. Please know that. Fear is a prison. I am releasing fear everyday. I am tired of fear. Of what ifs and maybes. I look forward to building our friendship, lovely Lees. xoxoxo Sam

  2. Sam! I love your images here, I love your song that you are sharing, I love your words, and more and more you share of yourself I love too! You are a sparkle in this world and I am so happy that I have encountered you! Splashes of bubbles filled with light, and glowing love to you!
    They will keep you surrounded for safe travels. 🙂

    Ha ha ha I hadn’t read Lees comment yet, I see we are kind of on the same page. (giggles)

    You are such an inspiration and delight! I am looking forward to reading about your new adventures as well. I feel bouncy so I am going to boing out of here. Boing, boing, boing, boing, boing…..:-)

    1. I am so glad you like this, Angel. The words of that song mean so much to me. Thank you for being there as I share. I am sorry I haven’t been reading your blogs as much lately. With vacation, I have been busy. But I always look forward to visiting your world and words. Your kindness and light is evident in all you do. Thank you for the bubbles of light and safe travel….:)
      You and Lees are often on the same page. All 3 or us are. Must meet the three of us!!! I love your sweet, sweet soul, Angel. Talk soon. Bouncing in your brightness. boing…boing….boing.
      Hugs, Sam

  3. you have made a legitimate change and you know it….It’s really quite remarkable and all proof of your inherent inner strength….true magic the human’s ability to heal…love this sam

  4. “Today is my last day in Maui but it is the first day I return home reborn into hope and the wonderful possibilities of life.” I love this attitude.

  5. “a prison of safety” – says it all! We so often worry about death, about dying, about bills, about where that hat is I lost 2 years ago, that we don’t see the important stuff. It’s like a room where you keep all your treasures, but we put everything else in front of them; now, you can’t see them, can’t get to them.
    Great thoughts,Sam,
    Scott

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