These last four days have been life changing. The combination of the new medicine and diet for my health condition, the sunshine, and the companionship of a dear friend have pulled me out of a two month-long period of deep depression. I know now the depression was more than situational. Besides an uncomfortable experience at the university I’d been attending and the death of our beloved family dog, I discovered earlier this week that my vitamin D levels are extremely low, my iron levels still below normal, and my protein levels very low too! Throwing in my new hypothyroid diagnosis, and considering any one of the before mentioned conditions can cause exhaustion, I’m surprised I could even get off of the couch.
As I am emerging from the dark tunnel of fatigue and depression, I am celebrating internally—my spirit soaring and applauding. I am applauding a renewed energy. I am applauding my strength, endurance, and patience. And I am applauding my experience.
No matter the degree of challenge, I understand the past weeks have made me stronger in spirit.
I continue to be hopeful my health will improve. Yet, I am releasing control to my higher power.
Today, through the help of my friend, I created the mantra: I am tree.
I am a tree. And in being a tree I need not worry what will land on me, break me, climb me, peck me, burrow into me, or even cut me down. I only need to be a tree and nothing more. And I am perfect in my treeness—perfect in my being. Like a tree I will not fret and will not fight against the unknown. I will be. I will live. And I will grow.
I recognize I have slipped back into old patterns, or what I call my old mold. Just as the physical body sometimes retreats back to an old set weight, the spiritual body can retreat back to a set way of living. For me this old way of living includes a fear-based mentality and many moments of over-thinking. I am visualizing a new mold that benefits my spirit.
I recognize I have been attracting to my life much of what I have been fretting about. I recognize that by focusing on beneficial thoughts, I in turn will benefit, as will those around me. I knew this before, but today I see my journey from a new vantage point.
In the coming days my hope is to continue practices of self-care and self-love, as I release control and let the seasons of my spirit unfold without struggle. I am tree. I will be. I will live. I will grow.
Everyday Asperger's 
Love the mantra! Best wishes as you continue on you journey!
🙂 Many thanks.
I am tree…That’s something very real and organic to hold onto….Glad your visit went so well:)
Thank you 🙂
Congratulations on shedding the old mold. I struggle with my own, quite frequently! You inspire me to ride that exercise bike today. Hugs to you! OMG! I’ m a tree-hugger! 🙂
Love the “tree-huger” aspect. 🙂 Congrats on the exercise bike motivation!
Okay, I confess, I wound up organizing my son’s toys in the attic. But it was more productive than Tru TV and popcorn! 🙂
You’ve got that whole Aspie honest-thing going, don’t you? lol 😉
Glad you are begining to feel better Sam. That is a great mantra! It reminds me of a new mantra I have for myself – I am a Warrior I can do anything without fear or pain – hard knocks roll right off of me!!! 😉 Got me through my new tough workouts and a root canal so far!! LOL
Love your mantra! You can do anything. Hard knocks roll right off of you! 😉
“I recognize I have been attracting to my life much of what I have been fretting about.”
Neale Donald Walsh wrote in “Conversations without God” that this happens. What you think about most is attracted to you. When you think about “I want” the mind/body hears “I don’t have” so it goes ahead and lets you “not have it”. “Choosing” has become a Mantra word for me. “I choose to have” is a great way to get your mind around the thoughts of lack.
Love ya, Sam, keep it up. Good post.
Scott
Thanks for the reminder. It is not “I want or I need” it is “I already have.” I will keep this in thought. Great mantra: I choose to have. 🙂 Thank you for the read and comment. 🙂 Sam
Old mold is such a great way to describe the behaviours that hold us back and stop us from growing.
Thanks for the comment. Nice to be releasing some old patterns. 🙂 Sam
Wonderful words! I am sharing in joy with you on shedding the old and glistening the new. 🙂 You made me think of grand and awesome tree houses. I found this link http://tree-house-pictures.blogspot.com/2011/04/whimsical.html
Thanks for letting this misfit bird land on some of your branches and sing her off key song. La la la (My happy song for you.)
Angel, I love those tree houses my friend.
Love you loads. Lees. xxx 🙂
Awesome trees! Love the part of you landing on the branches and singing. 🙂 Lifted my spirit even higher. You are a lovely blessing in my life, angel! ~ Sam
So glad you’re feeling better Sam. “As I think, I am.” Sometimes it’s hard to wrap our minds around, but it’s so true. Here’s to new leaves, deeper roots and songbirds filling your majestic boughs. xo K
Thank you. I am so ever thankful to have some energy back! Amazing pig hormone! God bless the piggy who gave me my strength and my higher power. I miss and love you. xox
Love this post, love you too!
I emailed you the rest. Lees. xxx 🙂
Tears of joy for you! xoxox
very inspiring, i’ll try this mantra,though I try to meditate,sometimes depression overpowers.
I understand. Wishing you beneficial love and light! 🙂
Glad you’re feeling better, Sam! You sound more upbeat!
Glad you are fine now Sam!
good friends have healing powers but you take care girl..low levels of nutrients not good…..
very inspirational Mantra am going to share this ….loved it 🙂
We are trees! Mighty and strong! Hugs to you friend. 😉 Sam
I’m glad to be feeling better, too.
Good for you, Sam…happy that everything is going well with you…all that “renewed energy” and your “treeness”…yes, you are perfect in your “treeness” my friend…awe inspiring thoughts you’ve shared here and your strength of character is just unbelievable…glad you’re feeling a lot better 🙂 love and hugs!!!!
The renewed energy has been a blessing. So are sweet people like you. Thanks for all of your kindness. Hugs! Sam 🙂